Friday, August 18, 2017

rich

Right now I feel like my life has been very rich lately. Good conversation, meaningful time together with people I love, abundance of things that make temporal life comfortable like food, a cozy peaceful bedroom and a/c :)

Two nights ago dear Alexis passed away. (For those who don't know she went to high school with us and we became better friends when Ruby was diagnosed with cancer last year). It was peaceful, her mom by her side. Last Saturday was the last time I communicated with her and I'll treasure it forever. I'm so thankful I got to say what I wanted to say. I was in the middle of a church meeting, Stake Conference, Saturday night. I went out into the hall to write her back and had a good cry for a minute because I knew that she knew that her time was short, and as I asked her to watch over Ruby, that reality hit me hard. I'm thankful that she reached out to connect with us. I will miss her honesty, her personality, our lunch dates, her love for Ruby, and the understanding that she had of us and our situation. She was rad.

I'm thankful to have packed in a few short fun trips this last week of summer. Thack's Shack, Bear Lake, and Midway today and tomorrow.
Bear Lake with the Thackerays





Zips, yum!



Cecret lake


Hidden peak, Snowbird



Thack's Shack up Big Cottonwood

Donut Falls

lunch visit with Grandma Carol


she's just the best

mark did a big ol hike to lone peak

art camp with their cousin Noah and Katie


Thursday, August 3, 2017

goals

sigh of relief :)

Last week we started putting the baby to bed earlier (7:30ish) and she's been sleeping until 6:30ish am. That is a win! Now in the evenings there is less stress and more hands to help and hold. She takes 2 naps during the day which also makes things easier. She's can sit up on her own now! And this week has seemed to be liking solid foods (not just choking them down).

I had been in a rut but am back out (tis the way with most of us for most of life right?). First, starting with more sleep, then made some goals and inspired by friends and people around me and a few instagram accounts :)  I've started running again and am hoping to do a 1/2 marathon in September. I'm also trying to put the focus on the spiritual side of my life so it can then help the other aspects...as opposed to waking up and first thing do the email/workout/etc thinking then I'll have time to talk to Heavenly Father through prayer and read the scriptures.  I'm trying to go to bed earlier (constant battle for me) so I can wake up earlier. For now thats 6/6:30am.

We were supposed to go to a family cancer retreat in Montana, but they didn't have enough families to attend and its canceled...which is ok because now we get to go to Bear Lake for a bit with Mark's fam and maybe a day in Midway with my fam!

Can't believe school starts in 20 days. That's going to be a big adjustment for me, and the kids. I love not being in a hurry in the morning with the kids. They love lounging in jams and sleeping in (our school starts at 8:15 which I vote is toooo early!) And Ruby, oh I'm afraid she's going to be lonely with both older sisters at school all day. She'll have a few afternoons of preschool, but if she can stand that much time with just me I'll soak it up because the time before they start going to school all day goes by quick.

We had a fantastic trip to California. So great. The ocean and the climate in La Jolla is dreamy.

Another big change is that Ruby's oncologist, Dr. Holly as we call her, is moving :( I was stunned when I heard the news. To think about seeing a different doctor has taken me a while to process. We'll see her for about another month before switching, likely to Dr. Fair. We've never met him before but she speaks highly of him. Holly is moving to Tennessee, where her husbands family is, and she'll be at St. Jude childrens hospital.

I took the girls to visit Alexis today. Doctors gave her 6-8 weeks of life, its been 4-5. Her body is declining but her spirit is the same and still very, very inspiring. She gave me a bracelet that says EXPECT MIRACLES. I cried. Oftentimes I ignore cancer in our life. It brought it back to reality for me, and that I should not give up. We have seen miracles with Ruby, multiple miracles, and I should expect it can continue.




visiting Grandma Sandy after the girls went to art camp with their cousin Noah and Katie
Annie didn't cry when Sandy held her, yay!

Up the canyon last night with friends.
Reminded that its so good for our souls to be outside!


Jane was mentioned in the Sandy City Journal about her running madness last May

Fun swimming at "the pool" with my Fetzer cousins and our kids


picnic with Grandma Carol at her work
She'll be 70 this year and I'm so very much looking forward to one day 
when she can spend more time as grandma and less time at work :)


I love these ladies.
Spent a night catching up, meeting new babies, and chatting


We have yet to camp this year, so Mark set up the tent and slept out in the backyard with the girls. They loved it. I loved it too-they had fun and I slept inside with Annie :)
Mark had slept in a tent the previous 2 nights also. He had a wedding to shoot in Montana and camped while he was there. 


reading together.

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tired baby being dragged on errands and decorated by older sisters with the closest knick knack 

found this in the girls room :)

pizza! just used rhodes roll dough and let them make their own

bracelets from Alexis

We love nurse Becky!!




Our trip to Cali
road trip food is Del Taco for them...they love their soft tacos












Siri caught a wave!

snuggle baby

Birch Aquarium